Time to Move On!

Here I am, lying on the hospital bed wondering what just happened.. The sound of the UVC hospital infection control equipment is quite low but I can't seem to sleep! I have just regained my consciousness and the strong images of the incident that happened before 2 hours do not seem to leave my mind! I shut my eyes and pray to god...”Please help me get over Linda!” but he doesn't seem to be listening. My parents are standing right in front my bed assuring me that things will be fine...But my heart is too feeble right now. I am not in a condition to listen to anything!

It was a bright sunny day and I woke up by the sweet aroma of the peaches that had grown in a grove nearby. Linda must be asleep, I thought... It wouldn't be good idea to disturb her by calling. At the same moment, Linda's name flashed on my mobile screen. Linda had a wonderful honeyed voice. “I want to meet you at 3pm, Sam.” said Linda. I was a bit surprised as the love was lacking in her tone. There was no nicknaming, hon, darling or any other names used. “Hey, are you alright, Lin? What's wrong?” I asked. “Nothing” she said. I need to tell you something by meeting you in person.” “Ok” I said and the call was cut from the other end.

Linda and I had been together for more than 6 months now. We had met at a party of a common friend and I was struck by her beauty. She had an olive even-textured skin and light blue eyes with petite features. “Meet Linda, my friend.” said Jack. I was too mesmerized by her beauty to speak anything. I managed to say a little hi and that was it. However, she kept chattering all night and asked me all sorts of questions about my work and family. We shared each other's numbers and that was a beginning of the most wonderful relationship ever! Slowly we discovered that we loved each other.

There were certain disagreements and issues going on off-late. She didn't seem to be happy or getting along with me. Last night we had a huge fight and she called me today morning to meet her. I was wondering what could have gone wrong. Small fights are a part and parcel of any relationship...I thought and looked into the mirror. I saw that I had overgrown my hair.

“I need a haircut” I said to myself. I decided to visit the hair salon which was near my house in Epsom. I had decided to make it up to her today. No matter how many apologies it takes. I really love her and what I did last night was not intended.

My friends and I had organized a reunion and I possibly couldn't miss it. I even took her along. Elizabeth had met me after a long time and I was keen to know what she had been up to. I hugged her and we kept talking for hours. I totally forgot about Linda's presence and got too engrossed in the conversation. Perhaps, I should have involved Linda in too, I thought. We had a huge fight as she was not ready to listen to me. “I felt so insulted.” She said. “You do not seem to be liking me anymore.” “It is not that Linda, listen to me!..I met my friends after a..my sentence was left  incomplete. She shut the door of her car and stormed off. I kept calling her till late but she wouldn't pick up.

Let bygones be bygones; I thought and started surfing through my favourite website looking for intimate presents for girlfriend. Linda always loved my choice of gifts. I ordered for a beautiful pink laced night gown. I was sure she will be really surprised and happy when it gets delivered to her doorstep a day later. I ordered and quickly finished with my routine as I had got up really late. “Where are you going, Sam?, don't you wanna have lunch? asked my mom.” “No mom, Don't wait for me.” I said and shut the door with a click.

I quickly reached the salon and the hairdressers gave me a quick and volumizing haircut. “I love the strands of hair falling on your forehead.” I remembered Linda's words. I distinctly remember how she kissed my forehead after saying that. I kept smiling while driving my car and reached the nearby café to meet her.

There she was, sitting at our favourite place sipping a cup of coffee. “Sorry I am late, but you could have waited for me to come.” I said. “I always do, but I am feeling a bit weak right now.” she said. I decided to resolve the matter and then order for myself. I opened my mouth to speak. But before I did that, Linda said “I think we need a break.” I was taken aback. This was not expected by me. “Why?” I asked. “You know things are not fine between us Sam. Why stretch them unnecessarily?” “But I am in love with you” I said. “No Sam. Give it some time. I don't think we are mature enough to decide that.” “But don't you love me?” “I thought I did.” She said. 'What do you mean you thought you did?.” She stood up and said “Look Sam, I don't know about you, but I need a break. May be you and I deserve better. If we miss each other, we will meet again. Love will drive us to do so.” This was her last statement and she left me. Brokenhearted, stranded and lonely!

I was driving home and her statements kept on lingering my mind. “I think we need a break.” I missed noticing a tree near the entrance of my street and lost the balance by ramming into a nearby wall. I started bleeding on my forehead and after sometime everything went dark. When I opened my eyes  I was in a hospital. “You will be fine, darling.” said my mom and she was in tears. I was saved as my parents arrived on time and took me to the hospital before I succumbed to death by bleeding.

After two days, I reached home and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked horrible and there was a scar on my forehead. The scar was even deeper in my heart. I had given everything I could to save my relationship with Linda. There was a little hope that she will come back to me some day but I badly needed to get off the stress. I enrolled for a meditation course in Surrey as my mom had told me how the coach helps you to get over the stress by meditation. It's time to move on, I thought and gulped the grief down to my stomach by drinking the glass of juice lying on the table next to me.